Verbal blogging, driving myself mad

Apparently this has been sitting in my drafts since February. I completely forgot about it.

I haven't been keeping up with this lately. I've been verbally blogging to myself more than anything, and it has not been good for me. And I keep doing it over and over and over again. The same fucking thing again and again. It's depressing and maddening. I don't understand why I do this to myself. Maybe I secretly like hurting myself this way. Maybe somewhere in my messed up little head, I feel as if I deserve this personal torture.

I'm thinking that maybe if I write/type things out it won't hurt as much, but it probably will. My feelings are still the same so what is the difference between typing and speaking?

What a fantastic day I'm having...

So, I wake up this morning and attempt to check something on my phone, but it doesn't work. Ok, I figure that the site is just down or whatever. Then, I look over at my cable box and there is nothing but bars across the display. Can we just say FUCK!

I was going to work on my project and other homework assignments, but I can't because I have no internet to work with and I will NOT be using the 3G on my phone for it because I'll end up using massive amounts of data.

So, what to do now? Well, I could always read Stellarnet Prince until things get sorted out with the net. Oh,wait, I can't. I left my fucking Kindle at school last night. So until I get there today to pick it up from Security, I've got jack and shit to read.

And speaking of school...my wonderful husband told me he would leave me money so I can get to and from school for the rest of these 2 weeks. Motherfucker left me FIVE FUCKING DOLLARS! It costs $2.10 per bus ride. Stupid ass. And I don't want to hear shit about dinner since he hasn't left me money to get something to cook either.

Anyways, I'm gonna go back to sleep until Oliver wakes up and then maybe we'll play video games.

Winter Break

So, my Winter break from school will be starting in about a week or so. If I don't submerge myself in video games, there are some projects that I need to work on. I need to get myself into gear and start working on my cooking blog again, and I also need to work on the Stellarnet Rebel/Prince wedding ideas that I've had swimming around in my head since the Spring semester.

Dear me,

Stop biting your nails. Your fingers already hurt enough as it is.